For a while now I’ve been thinkin about who I am as a person. Not a lotta people know who they are honestly.

Most of the time, people assume how someone is from what they hear about that person or how they look. So Ima put down what I think I am for all you fucks that assume without asking or don’t know me.

I’m an asshole. I can be nice and I can be mean. I’m never just one or the other. I used to dress skater and punk but I admit that I dress like a hoodlum now. That doesn’t make me a gangbanger though. I probably won’t ever be one anyway LOL My friends consider me chill as fuck but it’s just that I dislike getting into tension with people.

I laugh a lot. If you really knew me, you’d know that it’s easy as hell to make me laugh. I enjoy being around people that laugh with me. A day without laughter is a day wasted.

Admittedly, I’m still crazy in love with a girl. Shit is complicated when it could be so simple. I have an idea for what to do, but I don’t exactly know how to get to that point yet. Time and patience is a bitch, but it’s what’ll make things work best.

I play the guitar occasionally and I actually started playing for the wrong reasons. I wanted to get girls through it but eventually started playing for the love of music. After a month I decided to quit, but a girl by the name of Monica got me back into it and without her, I wouldn’t be as good at it as I am today.

I’m a guy that looks for real relationship shit. No flings or in the moment bullshit. It’s hard to find someone real nowadays anyway with the amount of people that get fucked over like the domino effect and spread like wildfire. I consider the word “real” to mean things that last and have meaning. I like things that last. 

I’m an ex vegetarian, and somewhat an ex druggy. I honestly don’t have many friends and I spend time at school not really accomplishing anything. It’s hard to find a group of friends with common interests these days, but it’s something that I admittedly would like.

It wasn’t until a month ago that I decided that I’d like to move to New York after I get my shit together and done with here. I’d like to experience the New York experience even if it might suck.

I tend to sleep when I’m pissed off. It makes me drop the feeling so I wouldn’t take it out on people and say things in the moment that I’d possibly regret later on. It takes a lot to make me mad, but I have an explosive temper. 

I have a bad habit of talking to myself. I over think a lot and often find myself looking at the ceiling or sky and asking, “why?” I’ve attempted suicide once, but it was a fail and I don’t plan on doing it again.

Other then my parents, there’s only two people that I completely trust. 

If you’ve managed to read this far, congratulations nigga hahah