Dear Jamie,

If you’ve ever the opportunity to read this, this is probably the last time I’ll ever try contacting you. Think of this as a goodbye letter, if anything. For the past couple a days, I’ve been trying to convince myself that I hate you, but that just doesn’t seem to be working for me. I’m been filled with so much anger, but I think it’s what keeps me from feeling hurt anymore. You left me wondering how something so good, could end so badly. Although, I don’t know if either of us is to blame for it. There were things going on in your life, and things going on in mine. If you’ve ever felt that I’ve kept things from you, it was only to keep you safe. All I can say about it is that there are bad things out there after me. 

I was told things about you, and there were times when I exploded and didn’t know what or who to believe. But I thought more about it and kept reminding myself that trust was key. Without it, there are no opportunities to grow and find the good things in life. I hope you know that.

You were the best I ever had. You were the start of my day, and the end of it. Every morning I knew that I’d wake up to a good morning text from you. You didn’t disappoint. You called me up first most of the time and it made me happy. I felt important. For such a short amount of time that we were together, it felt like we were together for so much longer. Maybe it’s because I’ve known you for two years prior to asking you to be mine but who knows; it was the first time I went for someone I knew for that long. I’ve always wanted to kiss a Korean! It was nice. It was real. It was different. I was happy and I hope you were too. I hope to be able to feel the happy feelings I had felt again someday.

I’ll always look back on the things we did together with fond memories and the adventures and road trips we had with the car; although I try not to remember for the moment. Should our paths ever cross again, who knows, maybe we will run into each other at a coffee shop somewhere in New York. I’m not a fan of coffee but I’ll try it again someday.

Love,

Dominic